SilverLining.

i am coming to understand beauty. writing about this brings me more joy than anything i have written thus far. not being shaken to a degree that is unbearable is unfamiliar to me. part of my growth is remaining calm in most of all our situations, but again i am human. finding myself through spirit, trusting that i am good, i am loving and deserving of love is my luminous reality..

a miracle has passed through me and i know it will forever change me. i am falling in love with the magical dance of friendship and its  truest form of beauty.

((grace. divine love. forgiveness. real. patient. harmonious women. miracle. care. delicate. home. trust. friends. compassion. spirituality. non-judgement. popcorn. laughter. sanctified. circle. howling moon wolf. sacred. touch. music. lean. on. me. blessed. present. intention. nurture. connected dreams..faith..strong in numbers. heal. sisters & brothers.))

The divine love that taylor and i have been graced with is from compassionate, spiritual women with non-judgement and patience, in a caring and trusting circle filled with laughter, popcorn and delicate forgiveness to which hurts us. 

our blessed life is sanctified. through all the miracles of spirit. sacred music is medicine, and with  faith and  harmonious intention it will help heal the world. 

howl like a wolf to the moon my sisters and brothers, strong in numbers our connected dreams will touch and nurture through our faith. 

lean on me. friends. 

I want to thank my family here in Ithaca for celebrating Taylor's life, for seeing her accomplishments and nurturing her through her current struggles. For everything we have been through, I know that the beauty in your presence in our lives is our silver-lining. With endless amounts of love..

Regina

living this day in Joy.

As I close my eyes and imagine a different day I am gifted with warmth of my present day. The sun stretching through the clouds, piercing through buildings to reach my sight. "Look Taylor, do you see?" The rays of the sun, the still softness of the clouds, the amber's reflecting off the brick are all taking part in a moment of bliss... 

What is it that heals us? How do we become so sick? My Blog has been MIA for a very long time due to the research and life experience needed to really answer these questions. I have a genuine respect to the reader, to produce very real thoughts and facts, in an unseen audience consciously with love and gratitude. I cannot look out into the crowd and see your faces, expressions, happiness, confusion. I am sending this blog off today, written months ago because I feel it's relevance. Today's post will be followed by many more nurturing insights from our experience. My life with Taylor has taught me to fill myself and others with the emotion of love. Growing successfully internally is my present intention and sharing it with you. Blessings~

   Living among judgement and fear crippled my ability to heal, to love with trust and compassion.  It took me to a place built with walls, obstructing my spirit to breath, to speak. This bow of judgement that had wrapped around me was so tight that like a delicate chain around my neck when knotted was nearly impossible to untangle. What should I do? Did I wrap this bow around  myself or did others do this for me? 
Why do we judge? It is clear that through  history judgement is hurtful. It is hurtful to give and receive. Why do we make others feel this pain, question themselves, speak behind their back without value? I am certain that it is easy to rationalize why these thoughts impede our minds and then bumptiously enter out into the universe. My opinion is that the danger embarking us will be much greater, and that we will not be able to rationalize and comprehend what we have done. 
Do you believe that the sweet sensibility that lives within us could rise? That with time we could put judgement to rest. Are you currently judging my grammar and writing skills? Is it a test that I have given you or am I simply a poor writer to you? Will you receive my message or will you scoff in a snarky desire to disagree? The courtesy that we are given in life to roam, to breath, to procreate, to evolve on our own standards, "unnaturally" is something to contemplate. Are these blessings?   If you believe we are evolving naturally at this state, please think. Think of the possibilities of the future at hand. We were given the gift to love, correct? What makes us feed into the opposite, hate?

The human-race over consumes, burns energy, follows along, over indulges in really harmful things, compromises it's integrity and laughs at the thought of its destruction. The practice of law of attraction is crippling us because we are unaware of how harmful our thoughts are individually. My thoughts become my reality. Therefore, I think sweetly. 

When I speak of nutrition, open up to people that I am a vegan, outwardly insert facts into ruminating minds, still I see defensive judgement. My knowledge of food and medicine did not happen over night. I have been guilty of aiding and abetting dis-ease for years. Allowing unruly misconduct to happen to my child in the industry of medicine. I have locked this criminal up and have answers as to how to remain free from these crimes. I often hear people say, "here comes the soapbox." The spirit and courage that one may have to express themselves is not necessarily a soapbox. 

If I were to say to you, "I am a Pulitzer & Nobel prized scientist that has traveled the world and found the "fountain of youth."" Would you listen?  If I said, "My findings show, eating rich in mineral foods, water, rest, being kind to yourself and your fellow person, keeping good thoughts is the answer!!!!" Would you laugh? (Ha, ha, ha it is not shiny no? It is not a fountain no? I cannot take it in a pill form no?)

Hypothetically of course, how much longer do you think your body will allow you to continue this abuse? How much longer do you believe your child's body will withstand the path that you provide? As my own child continues to reclaim her life, I remember that the judgement of others does not matter. . .I am free.

My spirit is so high among the worst of conflict. The sound of my daughters voice asking me so kindly to sit next to her and meditate was a sign of hope. The solid rock beneath us holding our posture was perfect to the sound and vibration of the gushing waterfall beside us. The rays of the sun once again peeking through to witness her strength and encourage her with warmth, she listens. I sit beside her giving thanks to the blessings of people that have touched her life and given her hope in a sacred circle of love that she will keep in her heart space for eternity.  

Taylor is a 16 year old girl. A teenager who is striving to be conscious and aware. A vegan-with raw hopes,  facing her junior year in high school, whose life experience would cripple a team of Spartan men, yet she smiles. Wanting so desperately to have a chemically balanced mind in a compromised body. How is it possible for a teenage girl to not feel emotionally imbalanced when dealt this deck. Love makes this possible. Community makes this possible. Shifts of Joy and a friend reaching out makes this possible. What is normal really and how harmful can you be with words around your opinion of "normal?" 

My greatest insight to share is that when you decide to have a relationship with yourself, you will realize that listening to your new partner, "your body,' completely listening, you will be guided to a higher purpose within yourself. Living in bliss and joy, expressing gratitude, that in itself will make every cell in your body glow and dance around. This is even capable in a judgement filled, angry situation. I know, I practice this everyday. Your joy, can and will change the situation even secretly without any words..
My thoughts now are going to become reality. As I sit here, I am thinking of sending this blog out and then dancing with Taylor in the living-room to the song Breathe, by Telepopmusik. Movement creates sorriso's! 

I will be sharing our recipes for happiness soon!

Blessings always, always, always...

Regina 

Coming Home...

As Moby would say...
"People may all come together, People they fall apart, No one can stop us now, cause we are all made of Stars..Slowly rebuilding, I feel it in me, Growing in numbers, Growing in peace..."

A New Life
~Trinity~

Coming Home." This is a term that means something differently to all of us. In its loosest sense it may be that you are just "Comin home from the store." Some may feel very passionate about coming home, as if it is their most prized possession. It may be where their heart lies.  Others may see it as a place of Rest, a Religious belief for a loved one that has passed. Regardless of what is means to us all, Home is comfort when we need it. Sometimes "home" calls you. It is deep within you and truly hard to ignore. Family..oh this word is essential in "Coming Home." Understanding my roots has been very defining in my journey to achieving optimal health. The richest feeling I have had being home, has been seeing the young people growing in numbers. All of the new children we have to see grow is blissful. Being a part of their life is my responsibility in helping them experience their roots...
Listen, to comprehend your existence and nature, you kinda have to dig deep into your roots! Coming home to me was a pure moment. I mean this in the sense that is was desirable, a matter of the heart. I know for certain that my decisions are not clear to people, that I am misunderstood by many. Clearly, voices of reason do not always play a role when it comes to "matters of the heart."

Somewhere so deep within myself I feel compelled to reach to a distance as far as the stars to seek a greater life for my daughter and myself. I know that having impeccable health, incredible sacrifice, a deep respect for the Earth, peaceful relations with my Family and genuine Friendships is the only way of Life for me. I, like a wolf in a trap will sever my limb to set myself free of pain. Unfortunately the feelings of others have been hurt in midst of my transition, but it is clear to me now that is is very hard to always do the right thing when you are in pain and can only focus on setting yourself free. Severing a limb is beyond painful and it takes time to heal. You may lose a lot of blood and you are left to walk around disfigured. It is evident what you did, but eventually you must hold your head high and know that you made the right decision. This is exactly how I felt with my daughter being sick. All of my life decisions and mistakes have always been with good intention. I am not sure if this analogy makes sense to you who are reading, but hopefully to the ones I have hurt, it will. Going in to detail of this exhausting move is not parallel for discussion. I know that the hardest things in life are sometimes best left in silence, because they are significant in your success. My daughter has amazing redeeming qualities and I learn from her daily. She is like a wise old owl. "A wise old owl lived in an oak, The more she saw the less she spoke, The less she spoke the more she heard."  She has the ability to see things for what they are. Taylor is my home, my heart lies with her..

My Family has suffered a great loss recently. A very insoluble loss. It is an amazing feat to keep Balance in troubled waters. How ever you gain strength to see through such times spiritually, keeping that personal strength with you is essential. I see this beautiful life lost for unforgivable reasons and just feel lamented.

I have witnessed surmountable strength this week. It is so hard to wrap yourself around how people gather this ability. In matters as deeply painful as this I know it comes from their personal spiritual strength. A very definitive message was given to us this week, "Live Each Day As If It Were The Last." My words cannot justify my sorrow for my Aunt and Uncles loss. There are not enough tears to fall when a child is lost. My heart and energy will be with them daily and this is the only way I can find balance in this... 
Edited 7-16-2012 (Cpl. Frank Gross, was killed in action 1 year ago today. My little cousin you are thought of daily. Taylor and I embrace your courage and strength and wish your spirit to be close with Mom and Dad. A year has passed. I have seen your parents become this beautiful force, survivals greatest representatives. The love they have for you has bestoyed an incredible impact on your community, your friends and your family. For those of you reading this today, I am firmly against the war and firmly against the brutality that invade the families of many on all ends. The suffering that has occurred is going to cripple the energy force that binds us as human beings. I do not hate the men that constructed that roadside bomb that killed my cousin,  but I fear that their decision to purposely walk through that process will only create due harm upon themselves. A piece of my families paradise has been set on fire. The only thing left is to wake up each day and make the right decisions for all of the wrong. Love you Frank.


 "Slowly rebuilding, I feel it in me, Growing in numbers, Growing in Peace.." The nature of healing is time. We must grow in someway everyday. Seeing yourself for what you truly are is the greatest start. Rebuilding is redemption. What ever your message may be, make it Positive and Peaceful. If you are trapped, look at yourself and say, "Do I have the strength to set myself free?" Live today as if it were your last....and find your way home.

"You better get yourself together"...cause "We all shine on, Like the moon and the stars and the sun, We'll all shine on.."
"Everyone, c'mon!!!" The Beatles

Namaste~

Beautiful You. Magical You. Evolving You...The Female Body.

Let us open the conversation of the Female Body. What are your first thoughts in regards to it? Depending on who you are and where your mind is, your first thought is most likely an exterior thought. It is beautiful, sensual, curvaceous, soft, delicate, innocent, provocative, louring, favorable, complicated, restricted, temptious, irresistible, flattering, sexy...All of those adjectives are completely acceptable, although only exterior. It is a complex matter to most men and unfortunately "we" do not know ourselves enough to even explain it to them.  Listen ladies, it is truly important that you understand your components. All of your parts if you will. You are not just made up of your skin, eyes, breasts, legs and .... other things. We have many of the same parts as men, obviously, but proudly we have much more that we need to understand. Okay, let's look at the basics:

Your Heart~
Wow, what an incredible organ right? This is what your precious little gem does for you in one day:

2,000 gallons of blood is pumped through 60,000 miles of vessels, in one day. That is like filling up your car (15 gallon tank) 133 times to travel from NY to Seattle 25 times. This is perspective people in a nut shell!
As we go on about our day the heart beats 100,000 times on average.
Also, and here is where the real work begins, your circulatory system provides oxygen and nutrients to the tissues while also collecting carbon dioxide and WaSte products!!!! WOW, that's a lot of work for something that only weighs 10 ounces. Here is a question. .
Do YOU take care of your heart with the same respect it takes care of you?


Food, this is the Fountain of Youth girls!!!! 
Your heart needs dark leafy greens like Spinach, Kale and Collard Greens. Many people do not like the way Kale and Collard Greens taste and or that they are hard to digest. A terrific solution to this is to make a smoothie!


Here is my recipe:
1 hand full of Collard Greens,
Kale and Spinach, 1banana,
1 kiwi, 1 apple, a splash of OJ or Mango juice.

Get creative! Add whatever you think will make it delicious to your taste! (By the way, the average person has 10,000 taste buds!) If you do this ever day, consistently not only would your heart be thankful, it would do wonders for your skin, hair and energy. I mean the list goes on and on. That is the beauty about natural things, they don't just fix one problem, they fix all your problems. Also, sitting in posture gives your heart room to breath, it also will give you clarity and help you digest your food properly. Are you a slouch? Are you hunched over? If so, your rib's and upper body weight are just sitting on top of miles of intestine, stomach, spleen, kidneys, liver, adrenal glands, etc... Basically putting pressure on these organs, making their job just a bit harder. Almost everyone has fallen into sloppy posture, but it like everything can be fixed!
Sitting up straight will make all of your organs happy, not just your spine and such! Okay, so we understand how important our "achy breaky heart is right?" Our heart is not in San Fransisco, it is not Prince Charming and not our emotional ticker. It is a bad ass machine that needs you to get off your bum and take care of it! I say this with love!

Quick facts about Kale:

Kale is one of the most nutrient-rich greens out there – it is a magical, powerful food! Here are just a FEW of the many health benefits of eating more kale:

• Improved digestion - leafy greens are full of fiber and sweep your digestive tract clean
• Improved mood and energy levels – full of vitamins, nutrients and grounding earth energy
• Less food cravings – the nutrients and fiber in kale keep you satisfied (cravings usually signify a lack of nutrients)
• Cancer-fighting - the phytonutrients in kale activate detoxifying enzymes in the liver, reducing the risk of many cancers.
• Calcium - yes, calcium! You don’t need milk to get it. Eat kale – the calcium is more easily absorbed by our bodies than it is from dairy products.
• Vitamin B6, magnesium, Iron, Folate, Vitamin C, Vitamin A, Vitamin K -- all great for immune support to keep you healthy
• Weight loss – kale’s fiber content and nutrients keep you full and satisfied longer, and boosts your metabolism by keeping insulin levels steady. Kale is Magic! 

Next up!
Your Pancreas~
I chose this to be next in line of importance because it does not get enough attention. It takes the back seat to the heart. It's like "always being a bridesmaid and never the bride.." [Huh!]
Many woman I ask do not even know they have one? I get a common response, "I thought only men have that?" Nope, not true. The very caring Pancreas has a crucial role in our system. This bad boy sits behind our stomach. It is connected to our small intestine and located near our spleen. It resembles an over sized tongue if you will. Girls, this golden gland has special cells that secrete your hormone insulin. Insulin is like a military sergeant directing your energy metabolism. Insulin tells the fats cells to take in the fat and store it, and our muscle cells to take in the sugar. This is essential for our body to utilize food. Without insulin the body will get into trouble. Serious trouble.  Without your Pancreas, you are done. So I implore you to get to know this vital organ. Give it the essentials it needs to function. {DID YOU KNOW that we generally absorb ONLY 10% of nutrients from what we eat?? If you JUICE your vegetables this INCREASES by 92%. In one glass...}
WOW!  The juice hits your bloodstream like alcohol does, giving you energy and vitality with your organs.  Mmm, I am sipping down my Carrots and Apples as I type!
Okay, back to business..

(Fun facts: The average human has 700 muscles, 206 bones and depending on the definition..over 1000 organs.) To actually think that you are not worth anything, that you do not accomplish much, that you are insignificant? I started to feel terrible about things last night, I quickly remembered everything going on inside of me and how powerful I am..I sat up, took many deep Yogic breathes (this connects energy to your nervous system) and made plans. I love that I can see this World going on inside of me. It sounds zany right? Imagine yourself having a visual connection with your organs. [Ha Ha] The X-ray business would be obsolete! Okay moving on...

K I D N E Y S~

Listen, the Heart is a glamorous organ right? I mean can you imagine seeing a pair of Kidney's on the Empire State Building on Valentines Day? NO!! But these two guys are top notch producers. A team if you will. Like Yin and Yang, Forest and Bubba, Starsky and Hutch, Batman and Robin, Rocky and Adrian... "Looking like beans, weighing in at 6 ounces each, these guys are fit to win!" "Let's GET ready to RuMBLE!!"
Seriously though, your Kidneys filter your body's ENTIRE blood volume 40 times a day and convert your waste into about a quart of urine.  {40 times!} These guys control your acid balance. If you have too much it restores your balance with water control. Because they are on RED ALERT all the time, basically like Homeland Security, they are susceptible to disease and infection due to stress. Woman often get a reoccurring bacteria in their bladders. We generally are unaware of this and eventually it could bring these guys down. It is VITAL that you drink plenty of water for this team. You don't want these guys to get knocked out of the ring for dehydration right? Again, your diet is KEY! Pay attention to their survival needs. Girls, we have a motherly instinct within us. Let us look at our organs like our kids and protect them! Becoming familiar with your body will change your life!
I promise you..


The ever so frustrating Hormones!!!!!!

Sex, Food and Stress Hormones....
Good lord girls, can we all just sit and think about these bad boys for a minute? Hmm, what is going to be driving me today? Am I going to think about boys all day, crave cupcakes and french fries or drive my car into another because I was cut off? Hmmm....where will my "Hormones" take me!  Maybe I will get lucky and have all THREE? YAY!!!
Estrogen is the main party in this for us ladies. She is powerful. Her main goal is to make you fertile and process food. She also works on your bones, keeping them strong and healthy. So don't mess with her. She obviously will tell YOU what's up! Women today battle more female issues than you can imagine.  Cancer of any kind is unacceptable. Let's be preventative and understand these Hormones and their role.

Others are:
Insulin-guides blood sugar
Parathyroid Hormone-controls our calcium balance which controls an even heart rate
Thryroxine-thyroid gland, helps regulate the calories in our system
ADRENALINE-speeds your heart up, clenches your muscles, slows your digestion and can clot your blood if injured.
Cortisol-STRESS related hormone, helps reduce swelling around a wound, but too much will give you high blood pressure..

YIKES! This is a lot to balance, right? Yet somehow your organs get you through each day. I hope that my forward ways do not disempower my message. Again, Capple House has only good intentions to love and encourage even just one person to see something I did not see years ago, a solution. I dream of knowing myself completely, being happy for all reasons and living a deeply compassionate life with my family and friends. Oh and clearly loving the Earth and healing naturally.
Women are such an incredible creature. I have witnessed strength that I cannot describe in some of the women in my life. Keeping yourself healthy while battling life can be fairly simple, I promise. An Earth based diet, Yoga, Meditation and sleep girls will honestly give you balance in more ways than one!!! Being the epitome of strength means you need balance and a great deal of care. I am a firm believer. When I get off track for even a few days, I start to become a lunatic. We have the power and the right to be more than just merely decorative. We have so many more beautiful, magical parts to our system. If you study yourself you will find a mystical dream happening inside of you everyday! You don't have to give up your life to be happy and healthy. Just help it out some..baby steps!
Making better choices is a great start. Think about what you do for yourself from the second you open your eyes until the second you close them. The truly amazing things your body does for you is breath taking. You must make yourself a priority, not an option. The Fountain of Youth is within all of us. If you can get out of this social-media driven mind set of what is good for you and do your own research, you will see the Truth. I have only listed a fraction of what we are made of. There are books that you can pick up at Half Price to guide you. I recommend, "The Female Body an Owners Manual."
We as woman have capabilities we are not even aware of, let's find them!

Namaste~

I love you more than dirt!

If I say to you that I love you more than dirt, you might say back in a snarky manner, "Well Thanks Gina..."
If I say this to you, it means that I truly love you. You see I am going to go off my rocker here for a second and explain some things. Dirt to me, is more than just some inconvenient substance beneath my feet. My love for dirt started when I was a kid. Isn't it almost every child's most favorite natural thing, DIRT!? We get jaded as we grow, the pureness and innocence of our connection to the Earth sort of gets miss placed. Dirt is ALIVE! My relationship with dirt is restored because now more than ever I understand it. The make-up it presents is fascinating. It is unfortunate to me that we cover it up with concrete, blast away at it, changing it's path indefinitely. Without dirt we would not be. Dirt is the skin of the Earth. It should be our most prized natural resource. It should be handled with care and positive energy. Sealing it off and contaminating it, I fear will be our biggest mistake as Humans. Think about how sick we are..? As a creature on this Earth, produced by the very elements the Earth is made of, we are not thriving. We are sick. Disease is something almost every person I know deals with. The sad and increasingly devastating number of children that are sick in our country is cantankerous. It seems as though it is just too much to deal with, but in reality it is not! The beautiful truth is that you can make the difference in your own home. One by one, families can reverse this epidemic immediately. Here is the kicker, eating right, RIGHT NOW is the solution to your problems. Your body is an incredible vessel that has natural healing powers. You just have to fuel it properly. You can make the difference with your children with these numbers. If you are a kid reading this, stand up for yourself and make better decisions. Protect the most vital thing that is giving you life, Dirt! Grow your own Garden, stop putting toxic waste in ya beautiful self mon! If a family in Brooklyn can grow vegetables on their roof top, I'm pretty sure we can do this in any space. Take time for yourself and your family. Save money for important meaningful things and care for your Earth.  Listen folks, Mother Nature is going to fight back and she will win. Let's step off our high horse and become humble to her. Magic is the Bloodstream to the Universe, Faith is the Key, Desire is the Intention and Love is the Need! We all desperately need human connection, but more importantly, I know we need a deeper connection to the Earth beneath us. I dream about coming home to New York and stepping on my family's land. My daughter talks about our land as if it is a sanctuary. It is amazing when you are young, how you see things so clearly. She and my Granddad would explore, as he did this with all of us. He was a Science teacher and loved the Earth. I love that his passion for what is natural was embedded in me. Even though I lost sight of those things, I am on that path of redeeming my union with my maker, the elements around me. Evolving takes patience, right? The fact of the matter is, I am made up of dirt and that is exactly where I will end up!

I asked Google to define Dirt, this is what I got:  A substance, such as mud or dust, that soils someone or something, any substance that is filthy our foul. SERIOUSLY? Why are we giving the one main component of what we are made of such a terrible description? I think it is time for change peeps! If you are my friend and think I am crazy now, well guess what, you're going to get crazy with me!! I am going to have an annual Dirt Party and you are invited!!! I know I have a couple of friends saying, "SWEET, I'll bring the dip!" It is time for us to be kids again! Bringing awareness to yourself is all that matters. Making small changes will make a significant impact on the most important natural resource that we have, besides the Sun of course..Close your eyes and imagine right now what it would be like if the Sun took a vacation and the skin of the Earth, died.......
We should have Faith in ourselves to have the Love and Desire to be the Magic to the Universe..

It is in our hands.

Namaste~

aberration.

if you are going to start a Journey..shouldn't you have a map? Life, a simple word considering its importance,  has a perpetual tendency to get wickedly off Balance if you are not careful. so much to do, so much to do..having the Heart of a lion and the luck of a squirrel is a peevish conundrum. sounds like a children's book, but in respect to my Life, it would not be fitting. like a bumptious child i have much to learn and much to tame. this map i have drawn out for our Journey has been logged mentally. filed in a place that is collecting dust. i have placed it there subconsciously i believe, because i have lost the interest of my co-pilot, my Fred Astaire, mia Socio, my Daughter. her aberration is okay, but mine is not. she is growing and willful. clearly demanding to make her own mistakes. i am no longer the lead character in this play. Acceptance is the hardest Lesson for a Mother. you must understand that you cannot mold your child. i must learn to delay the ruminating "all knowing thoughts," and give her and myself a break. i feel like i am screaming and no one can hear me. is anyone listening? so many people around me are so careless with their lives, why? i see kids chugging soda, energy drinks, eating terrible things and they are seemingly healthy? Taylor on the other hand is not so lucky. Parents just don't look at the facts. DO the research, our kids are in gross numbers getting sick everyday. disease is not something God has handed these children. our Environment and lack of duty to our kids to be healthy is the cause. their luck unfortunately will run out and who is to blame? i don't mean to be preachy, i just care. sometimes i feel that my wishes are rarely granted, my worries are sitting here with me, and my compassion for her to achieve optimal health, serenity and enlightenment will be my dying wish. Buddha found enlightenment under the Bo tree. 
this did not come to him easily. thankfully, Wisdom comes only in Time. Mia Socio will find her Tree of Wisdom! i Pray to the Moon and Stars that she will rejoin me on this path to a Healthy Life soon. it is extremely hard to be forward thinking always, make all the right choices and expect so much of yourself. especially when everyone around you is not like you. being scoffed at or picked on because you are not making bad decisions with your friends is hard for a teenager. it is hard on me! people actually get annoyed with my Life choices. why? i admittedly am a hypocrite because i am most likely annoyed with their choices, but only because i want the best for them. there is a distinct difference.

we have struggled together on so many issues, our lives have been messy for a long time, too long. every time i clean it up, a hurricane comes through and sets me back.. this is something i may never understand. honestly, i have become an expert on making everything appear terrific, because that is what i want to believe. Life is terrific, even when it is failing you, but it hurts..a lot. it can be relentless and unforgiving, but excitably worth it! if you are a Mother and are listening, please be good to yourself and to your Children. Give them good Health and less substance. Spend more Time with them and less time in the Smith and Jones race to success. i look at the plate i provide Taylor with and wonder how i can add more Life to her through that plate. what am i doing for her? if i had been slapped in the face with this knowledge years ago, her Life would have been miraculously different, but again Wisdom comes in time.. i was not taught really anything about Nutrition or how my Body functioned. Why didn't i care enough about myself, to at least look up and understand the one thing getting me through each day...my Body? i certainly knew everything i needed to know on how to work my electronics, maintenance my car, apply all matter toward vanity...it's just silly really.

i don't know, i guess this blog is one more avenue to ground myself. i truly hope that our Life experience helps others. having Hope for reason is a Blessing to my conscience. i have gone circles in my mind trying to make sense of everything and i truly believe Capple House will be a tremendous way to help make all the wrong, right...my aberration has ceased, my map is out and i have blown the dust off! my Sentiment to you is Genuine and more than ever, i am thankful to you for reading...

Namaste~

The story behind Capple House!

Capple House is a community resource blog for Natural Healing and living an Earth Conscious Life. I created the blog name through a series of thoughts in mind for future endeavors. A catering company or a raw kitchen, possibly a yoga studio or a natural healing clinic. The list goes on and on in my overly tenacious mind! All in which I would have named Capple House. I have been for a while sending out little helpful references on FB and thought, why not just create a page and share all this juicy stuff that I am learning about health. Well, of course being raw, I bet you wouldn't guess what I juice every morning? 

Ding, ding, ding..Carrots and Apples! 

My body has taken over a new obsession with this juicing method. I literally depend on this daily. So for my love of Carrots and Apples, I created the name Capple House. 

Now, all of this stems from healing my daughter Taylor, naturally. I remember when she first got sick, I thought this is the scariest thing that has ever happened to me. What do I do? How do I fix it? Who do I trust? 

My world as I knew it, was forever changed...

 The doctor that diagnosed her said, "Your daughter has Crohn's Disease and Ulcerative Colitis." I said, "Well, lets fix it!" He said, "I am sorry, it is chronic, there is NO cure." He then said, "She will need to go in the hospital, here is a pamphlet." The pamphlet always got me..it's like, "Here's your sign.." I remember looking at the wall of pamphlets, thinking she is just a number to this disease. I had wondered how many pamphlets they predict to print in a year and how did they know we would all be getting sick? The first hospital stay was I thought the worst. We were alone, in Florida and clueless. All that I understood was that she was in pain and bleeding so badly rectally.  

Seeing your child held down for the first time by nurses is indescribable. The first IV, the first time putting her to sleep. The first of everything is always seemingly the worst. 

Little did I know, this was going to become my life...

Taylor was a little cutie, always starring up at you with her bright blue eyes. Her curly hair and chubby cheeks were just an accessory to her contagious laugh. She was luminous and happy. My images of her, in her little hospital blues, walking down the hallway together. She would hold my pinky and and look up at me with courage. I know she was being strong to comfort me and I in turn was for her. She was so innocent and pure walking down the hallway. I could write a book with that title. "Walking Down The Hallway." This is a common thing patients do. The hallway is a sign that things are looking up. That first hospital stay was really a walk in the park. It was the beginning to something no one could prepare me for.

A life without control.

Taylor in her life time has had:  

At least 200 IV's,

at least 10 PIC lines,

had her blood drawn over 200 times,

drank barium fluid at least 20x,

countless N.G tubes,

had 7 MRI's,
over 20 CT scans,
countless X-Rays, over 30 blood product infusions,
1 blood transfusion, 40 + Remicaide infusions,
3 yrs of weekly shots that I gave her,
7 years of steroids, endless, countless drugs,
16 seizures,
3 major abdominal surgeries,
1 Complete Colectomy, (Large Intestine removed),

1 prolapsed rectum,

1 blood clot, 1 broken fibula, 1 broken wrist, 1 Ileostomy,

2 Fallopian tubes removed, (understanding she will not carry a child),
has had fluid drained from her spine,
consumed endless bottles of hydrocodone,
missed an average of 50 days a year in school, (maintaining A's!)

lived over weight for years due to steroids, several occurrences of waking  up in pools of blood,

over 100 nose bleeds, menstruated for 5 months straight, swallowed 2 camera's, at least 10 colonoscopies and endoscopies, carried 2 large cysts full of blood inside her fallopian tubes for at least 5 months, lived at Texas Children's and Galisano Childrens' Hospital her entire life. She also was transferred in an ambulance to Chop in Philly and went there a few times. I am thinking in 12 years, this is too much.. Okay, so this actually isn't even everything, there is more..but I think at this point you get my message. These doc's have had her all over the place, putting her through endless amounts of pain. My daughter has spent 4 Birthdays in the hospital. I mean can you believe that? It is REMARKABLE that she has the spirit that she has. Listen, one drug after another caused most of these issues. Not understanding what Taylor was missing, regarding minerals, nutrients and such was a huge factor. Taylor is now finally healthy, naturally! The last 15 months were substantial in this movement in our lives. Changing her diet completely, to mainly a Raw/Vegan diet and then adding the minerals and vitamins she was missing, changed everything! The Gerson Clinic really changed our thinking. I desperately wanted Taylor to go to the clinic to be healed naturally, but unfortunately due to her NOT having a colon, it poses a problem. Of course, I did not let that get me down! I just decided to do as much as I could on my own. So Welcome to our story and Welcome to Capple House!
I will, in given time be sharing so much with this blog. There needs to be a message, a simply yet profound message. If my daughter's life experience helps save another child or adult from this kind of long term pain and suffering, than we have made the absolute best of the situation. Please be good to yourself, find the truth about your problems, make the right decisions, get opinions from Holistic Doctors, Chiropractor's, and people with life experience. Specialists do not know what you are going through, there are Meet Up groups for everything. Investigate, it is your LIFE! I have great appreciation for your time in reading my blog, I love feed back!!

Namaste~

Taylor has: Crohn's Disease, Epilepsy, Von Willebrands Disease, (severe level 1), Puseudo Tumor Cerebri and Osteopenia

Healthy and happy and ready for life!